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With a special appearance by Maria Callas. See if you can spot her.

-That people comment, unsolicited, on my appearance. For good or ill. I do not want to hear it, because I didn’t ask you.
-That I can render myself unrecognizable to people who know me through very slight alterations in my attire or makeup or hairstyle.
-That I can only assume from this that people do not look [...]

At odd times, I become utterly convinced that I will fail everything in school and end up dying, alone, on the streets. It’s not a good mind-frame to be in while trying to study.
As well, I’ve spent several years of my life feeling like it is my duty to other people to look the same [...]

As you know, I’ve been painfully working my way through Scoot Over, Skinny: The Fat Nonfiction Anthology. This morning, I encountered the article about sweathogging, which I’d read before. I barfed up my rambling reflection into my paper journal. Apologies beforehand for the repetitive/arrogant focus on my appearance.

I’m fat. It’s no secret to me or [...]

Over at Big Fat Blog, BuffPuff said: “…if it were simply a matter of physicality - learning to live comfortably in a fat body – that, in itself, wouldn’t be so hard. But it’s not that simple. It’s learning to survive in the current societal climate. It’s living each day knowing you ARE the very [...]

I can’t even begin to tell you how deeply disturbing I find this story about a teenaged girl who, after blossoming into physical beauty, becomes paranoid and is finally diagnosed with schizophrenia. This was featured on Big Fat Blog, via a couple of other blogs, but I felt that I needed to write something a [...]

I feel very good today. I imagine due to 12+ hours of sleep yesterday and the weight of the school semester mercifully lifted off my mentally dowager’s-humped shoulders. Aahhhhh. Calgon…
I want to read, read, read. I have now ordered TWO books from Amazon. One is called Look at My Ugly Face: Myths and Musings on [...]

Originally posted to Big Fat Blog
It is a Saturday night party in Portland, and I am intoxicated.
I am surrounded by art students and young hipsters, feeling very out of place: fat, makeupless, wearing jeans and a wedding ring. But I endeavour to strike up conversation with the young funk fan next to me on [...]

Wanna see something disturbing? Check out www.blubberbusters.com.
No time to write for now. Let me just say that this website contains examples of everything I’ve ever read NOT to expose children to in my nutrition study. Morons.

I’ve thought about this problem before, but a recent comment brought it up again:
What about fat women who’ve tried to love themselves and have failed at that too?
It’s a curious dilemma. I mean, what do you do when not only diets have failed you, but your effort to try and accept yourself has failed? [...]

Sometimes I read around, looking at other people’s blogs. I like to keep abreast of the fitness/weight-loss circle especially (yeah, I know I’m fucking obnoxious, heh) and this is one of the sentiments I’ve encountered a few times: people being angry with anorectics or bulimics.
First off, I would prefer not to [...]

As my husband and I walked through Chapters one night, I saw a book in the bargain section that caught my eye. It was called Losing It: America’s Obsession With Weight and the Industry That Feeds on It by Laura Fraser. I laughed a little to myself, and picked it up, smugly thinking, [...]

When I was married, at age 20, I weighed around 190 lbs. At the time, I had been living on my own right up until I came to Canada for my wedding, and I felt pretty good about myself. I didn’t care so much anymore what I looked like (I mean, I still [...]

We listen to these people?
“Your husband’s attitude…is due to your unattractive, overweight and therefore aging appearance. He becomes ashamed of you, and so do your children. Go on one of my diets and see how your husband and your life brightens up - it happens in most cases.
“Too many of my patients have [...]

Tonight I enjoyed a full hour of people brutalizing their bodies on Life Network. One show was Taking it Off, the next Skin Deep, about people having cosmetic surgery. The vast majority of people on these programs are women. Losing weight and inflating breasts was the theme.
It makes me feel so desperate. What can I [...]